Just Words.

still an independent dependent on my own self pity

if i'm not in control, i break down

and i will break down until i am in a hole that i can't climb out of

until the rain stops falling down 

remember your worst

several days have passed now and i'm still stuck here waiting

self destruction is my reality

and my reality is all that i know

i'm falling down and now i am falling away from you

i never needed you to stay

you were just along the way

You Can't Choose Love.

we don't choose love

love finds us

we just settle without ever knowing

but the moment one finds it

is something never to forget

you no longer have control

and loves takes over you

you are never to return

to the place you just were

because you can't just get rid of love

even after the body is gone

Temporary Stability

we all adorn ourselves with costumes

to try and escape what we truly are inside

and some of us our wearing our masks

a little better than the rest

that i can see

and so i'll go on trying to make it on my own

i don't need you to stay

cause the life i've been living

has taken its toll and it leads me to believe

that i can fake it on my own

i don't need you to stay

all the times i tried to make you see

that you were nothing more than a boy to adore

yet you take all i have

leaving me to go alone with my heart of stone

trying to break it on my own

The Cycle

december brings no change

still stuck in limbo

december never brings change

fractured memories

turn into falsities which no one can explain

i feel change is not to come

because i can't seem to break the cycle

look around and you can see

the cycle controlling us

look again and you might be

able to see the cycle in motion

now it's snowing in spring

and i can't feel a thing

trapped inside myself again

but it doesn't mean a thing

when what's inside is all i have

and i can't seem to share it with anyone

because i can't stop the cycle

History Erased

no time for writing

when these structures do not give allowance

for a chance to reflect on the sacrificial memories and histories

given to us by our ancestors

we lose ourselves when we lost our past

cherish the story passed down to you

and, more importantly, pass down your story too

these stories of the past do not define your path

but they give you the knowledge

the knowledge you need to know

which direction you should go

One Last Try

i'll give you one last try

to prove to me that you mean the words you say

i'll give you one last try

to set yourself apart from all the other men who live this story

i'll give you one last try

i'll give you one last try (x2)

but the words i say never mean a thing

and all the last tries behind us show my strength is weak

but i'll still give you one last try

because the loss i fear is far too close

if i don't give you one last try

i'll give you one last try

i'll give you one last try

i will give you one last try

but maybe the cliches have all been right

and all the last tries don't mean a thing

so should i continue to believe in the story

(suck up all my pride)

or should i cut all the ties

before i decide

to give you one last try

Too Little, Too Late

so i'll say it

for i don't know why

i feel pain

thinking about you

so i'll go on

and say that this won't work out

but i know i can't let you go

so i'll stay here and wait for you

to come and save me

and just say you love me

just say you love me

but c'est la vie is what you'll say to me

(i can't break this pattern)

yes, c'est la vie is what you'll say to me

Energy and Emotion

Emotion is energy.

If you don't release the energy, it collects and festers.

The more people there are with this collected energy, the stronger the impact once it is finally released.

The further isolated we become, the more this energy builds up.

And, the more bitter we become with where our society is.

Without voicing our opinions, this energy begins to consume us.

Do not try to escape the life you are living, for escapism is a factor in allowing this negative energy to thrive. The more you escape, the more you repress.

Are you going to allow yourself to succumb to negativity?

Or, are you going to be a part of the positive change that is necessary for our society to survive.

Negative energy will be our demise if we do not learn how to turn it around.

Equality should have no bounds.

The Raven's Crow

Are crows really the messengers of bad things to come?

I see the beauty watching them fly free.

The raven's crow cries, "Do not fear the change that is near. For the fear of change is what causes disaster."

The raven is the messenger of change.

Heed to the message of the raven and change before change is too late.

Do not fear. The end is not here. Celebrate the change that is ahead.

And, never fear when a crow is near.

SellOut.

Sometimes I think that I should just sell out.

Life would be so much easier.

But my noble soul would rather die trying to reach the top of the mountain

than to sign away my soul for fame and fortune.

Am I wasting... just wasting my time?

Maybe I should just become domesticated

It sure sounds easier than this

Get trained to follow the herd

And their ignorance filled bliss

Cries for humanity never again to be heard.

Just put your head down and follow the herd.